There are instances in your life that affect you for the rest of it. I’m not talking about that time a semi almost hit you or a pregnancy scare. I’m talking about small details that make you think of something for the rest of your life.
For example, a friend I had in college would wear this thick, battered sweatshirt when we played football or shoveled snow. I thought it was so cool. This cool sweatshirt that had seen some experiences. It why even at 50, I keep my sweatshirts and do not let them go even when I can’t wear them in public. And they cannot compare to that sweatshirt that was ripped at the sleeve and had a worn collar.
I have a packer sweatshirt that from the 90s. The front pocket is almost ripped off so that there is a patch of dark green there while the rest is faded. The hood and collar are frayed, but not to a good enough degree.
I have a comfy sweatshirt that had a German phrase on it. The only letters left spell net. The problem with this one is that i got paint on it. I want it to wear out and yet I don’t want to wreck it so it does not ever get a rip. Yet, I want that sleeve seem to be giving way.
Every week, I think of that sweatshirt. I covet it even as I don’t covet the friendship that came with it. That I can accept has come and gone.
Do you have a small thing that cycles through your thoughts?