On Amazon Music I clicked on a playlist of the songs I often play. The first song is a hauntingly beautiful one-

Antje Duvekot – Sweet Spot of Your Life

The lyrics hit me particularly hard. It has so many lines. Especially-

“You always wanted something solid
Just one solid thing
Oh, but angels are so fickle
They only love you when you sing”

The song speaks of people having a sweet spot of life. When you are happy and effective and doing the most you will every do to change the world. Furthermore, you should cherish that moment because you will not always have it.

This post is to testify to the truth of this. I feel I have passed my sweet spot.  I have lost a lot of my drive as an author to get published and submit to journals. I have posted blog entries and posted a YouTube podcast to spread the word of the importance of poetry. I am slowing down on this stuff.

At work, my boss has a different idea of what I should be doing and discourages me from doing what I felt did make a difference.

My kids are all grown and show little interest in being close to me. When two of my daughters get together and want to do something, they invite my wife along and not me. They are perfectly content to not have my company. 

So, I feel I have passed the sweet spot of my life. I regret not treasuring it more, though I was grateful at the time.

I know the best parts of my life are over, but I do hope for some great useful things for me to do. It would be nice to find them soon.